Uncertainty.

The world works in ways that even the brightest scholars don’t understand, nor in ways that even ghosts can see. Let’s indulge in the idea of blissful ness, because as humans we are so blissfully ignorant to a world that we claim to know. 

We claim to know that when light and water hit the leaves on a tree, the tree will grow. Or that if gravity didn’t exist our world would be upside down. We probably claim to know exactly what love is, but who defines that? We talk and write and sing and demonstrate this feeling of “love” but are blissfully unaware of its boundaries. Why does it have to be contained? And why does it have to be specified to single things? Scholars and scientists alike spend their lives on theories trying to prove that we are a powerful and evolving species. They tell us that our brains are incredibly powerful but place taboos on ideas that our brains feel, like extensive love. 

Extensive love does not mean you love anyone or anything less. It means that you have the ability to love a little bit more than anyone else and you are ok with that deep down. Extensive love is looking for connection with people, something engrained deep in our human nature. Some people are more athletic, some are more creative, but some of us-we are just inclined to have an intimacy with people that others aren’t able to. 

Think about how amazing that makes our brains? Think about all these amazing feelings that we can have connecting to people, that other people can’t manage! We are the lucky ones, even if it feels like it’ll be the end of us.

So enjoy looking at the flowers and watching the leaves. The sound of the faint music and people chattering. You are able to do all of these things at will. You are able to control what you see, what you smell, what you hear, and if that means you can’t control what you feel, then that’s that. People won’t understand it, even your closest friends. Sometimes I feel like the most insane person on earth the way I think about some people, what I want to say to them and how I want to give my affection. That, I have to control because they don’t understand and see it as overbearing or abnormal. 

People are afraid of what they don’t understand. If you understand you by accepting you, then you won’t be so afraid. Maybe. 

Published by mariegwrites

23 years old Londoner Nurse Lover Hugger Explorer

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