Only Now

Only now I know how special you were
Only now I miss your voice calling out to me
Pleads for help in the middle of the night
Night after night
Only now

Only now I miss your smell
Musky, slightly stale
Only now I inhale when I go into your room
Just to smell what’s left of you
Only now

Only now I dream of your hands
Holding mine as a child
Wishing I held them a bit longer as an adult
To remember what you felt like then
Only now

Only pictures of your face I see
Memories that will fade over time, naturally
Only now I feel the true extent of your love
And the true extent of mine
Only now